Stressed..Depressed.. and no rest..

So Brandon has been looking for a new job and he has interviewed for a bunch in AZ and UT. Weeellll... we've gotten a lot of offers back from these jobs but most people want to hire tons of people with zero risk. I'm talking like 50 employees doing the same job that normally 2 or 3 would do. But hey, people are willing to work for peanuts these days so they can get away with it. We've got a really good company that is looking at hiring Brandon and we've literally been waiting 2 weeks for them to make a decision. They want to hire him but their az office is a little small so they're trying to figure it all out. No big deal except our lease is running out. We would just go but they are wanting to train him in Ut and not Az. Pretty much we're just both hanging out waiting for a response and who knows, if it doesn't work out we've been here for nothing! So we figure we better make some lemonade and have him interview at a bunch of other jobs while we're hangin out. Brandon is at the point where he is applying at jobs all over the country and at this point if it pays good and he likes the job we're moving there. Here we come middle of no where Nebraska. Ick. 

So that is our dilemma. 

As far as I go.. I'm pretty much going stir crazy. I've been wanting to get a job but each day it got closer to moving to Az it prob wasn't such a great idea to get a job for a month and move down. So I spend a few hours cleaning the apt everyday. Deep cleaning so we can hopefully get our full deposit back. I don't remember what this place looked like when we moved in, all I know is that they moved out the day before we moved in. I'm sure there were no carpet cleans, no deep cleans, no nothing. They left nails in the walls, curtain rods, trash, I don't even think it got vacuumed to be honest. Which is sort of okay because it's cheap rent and we have a fantastic landlord. Well anyways I spent about 4 hours trying to clean the oven the other day... all different kinds of Pinterest tricks. Came down to me taking a spoon and scraping it out. Where is my husband in all this you ask? Well I suppose it's the ol' "if you want something done right, do it yourself" His attitude toward it all is it wasn't even clean when we moved in, he won't be so strict! Well my attitude is, we signed the lease before the last people moved out, so he didn't have to worry about getting it cleaned, we have a dog in here, AND we are giving a two weeks notice and jumping ship. [hopefully]. 

Anyways I've had boxes packed up for about two weeks now, so we are literally living in boxes. It's a pain. I'm at the point where I just want to unpack it all again except I know if I do, we're going to end up moving the next day. We were supposed to be packing up the trailer today and on our way out tomorrow. But, sadly, we are still here. How do I feel about moving? Well bitter sweet. I would love to be in Az when the baby comes, be down for the holiday season, be down to have crafting nights with my sisters, bonding time, you know all that good stuff. But I LOVE Provo weather more than anything. One day it's 100 out and then next it's the most intense thunder storm of my life. It's just gorgeous here. You have to drive an hour at least to get any of this sort of feeling in Arizona. I just hate boring weather that never changes in Az. The heat is one thing, but every now and again I want a good cold storm. They only come around during monsoon season.

So needless to say I've been stressed out from all this not knowing business. I can't start setting up Jaxon's nursery because I have no idea where that will be. It's sad and depressing, that's one of the most exciting parts. 

Speaking of Jaxon, I had my Glucose screening test number one and FAILED it. Yep spent like 20 minutes crying.. I will blame that one on hormones. One measly point over and I have to retake it, but retake it in a worse way. Instead of drinking 50 g of sugar and sitting in boredom for an hour then getting stabbed, I have to drink 100 g, sit for 3 HOURS and get stabbed 4 times in the process. I am not excited. Just another stressful thing to add to the list. 

On top of all this complaining.. if for some reason you're still crazy enough to still be reading.. I cannot sleep like at all anymore. It's so crappy. I won't get to sleep till like 3. Then I'll fall in and out of sleep till like 11, and then I'll have to take a nap. I've grown so aware of trying to not squish this baby that every time I need to move while I'm in bed I wake myself up and cannot for the life of me get back to sleep. 

So happy 3 day weekend everyone. I know everyone is probably vacationing somewhere lovely, but here we sit, waiting, and waiting, and wanting, and waiting.

As for Jaxon:

Week 28: THIRD trimester!! This week has been pretty EASY going. Haven't felt any CONTRACTIONS of any sort. People keep telling me I look SMALL for how far along I am. That's a KILLIAN trait perhaps. Some days you will kick from morning till night and then all through the night. Others, I don't feel you until midnight. It makes me so NERVOUS. We've been very close to going to the DOCTOR on multiple occasions. I can tell you're still GROWING and can't believe we're just over 2 MONTHS away from MEETING you!

Facts: You're the size [length] of a eggplant! About 1.5-2.5 pounds and about 14 inches long. Your wrinkly skin is starting to get smooth as you put on some weight. Your lungs are developed enough that if you were to be born, you'd probably survive!! You're a keeper. With a few exceptions, you're basically done developing, you just need some weight and some chubby cheeks for mom to squeeze!